I sit here all alone…Zainub Kabir ...

I sit here all alone and my eyes are flooded with tears,
Who is there for me to express my heart’s fears?

I sit here and wait, for soon that day will come,
When I shall have to answer for everything I have done.

I sit here and I wonder what will happen on that day,
When our limbs will speak and our tongue will have no say?

I sit here by myself where nobody can see me cry,
What will I say on that day when one cannot lie?

I sit here and think of my sins that I have committed,
And hope that on that day, that they will be omitted.

I sit here and my heart feels broken in two,
I hope that on that day, my fears will not be true.

I sit here where Allah sees me from above high,
I turn towards Allah, asking for forgiveness and drawing a sigh.

I sit here shivering and hoping that on that day,
RasoolAllah salAllahu alayhi wasalam will not turn his blessed face away.

I sit here and I pray: “Ya Allah! Guide me on the Straight Path.
Make me not of those upon whom You have sent Your Wrath.”

I sit here, close my eyes, and listen to the Qur’an,
“Ya Allah, when I return to You let it be with Iman.”

I sit here and whilst wiping my tears away,
I ask from Allah one thing: “Don’t let me go astray!” (c)